Jealousy?...

There are time's in  my Christian walk with God that i hit a valley, a very low point in my Spiritual life.Right after I've been on a "Spiritual High". These are very trying times for me. There is a lot of struggles that i go through. So far I have been on a Spiritual low for about a week. I admit it my Walk with Christ is definitely not where i would want it to be. As much as i Trust in God to get me through each day, i can't help but doubt him. And i know this is very wrong. We should never ever doubt the Lord!
I don't feel like doing anything these days, except watch movies all the time, it keeps me from thinking about my problems and sends me into a non-realistic world for a bit. And thus is why i have not updated my blog. Sorry about that. forgive me?
The thing that i struggle the most with is Jealousy. I hate being Jealous of people. But apparently it's the one thing that come's very naturally for me. My Jealousy prevents me from having the right attitude towards people. or having a great time with my friends. When i hang out with two of my good friends, i often feel like a third wheel, and i feel if i don't get as much attention as the next person, then i have to be jealous of them.Because they have something that i want.Does this make sense?
I have been Learning to deal with my Jealousy by ignoring it and  thinking about what Jesus would do in that situation, or telling myself it's not what it seems and everything else will turn out right in the end. I Pray that God will take away this struggle of mine and replace it with Joy or love, so i will be able to show and feel love/Joy instead of the painful feeling of jealousy.
One of my friends showed me Philippians 2:1-11,but versus 3-4 really stood out to me "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, In humility value others above yourselves. not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others."
I realize that when i get jealous i am usually just thinking about myself and how i feel, that i get blinded from anyone else's feelings.I don't know if anyone else is feeling the same way, or is hurting a lot more than i am, because i am focusing on dealing with my own problems. I am being selfish, and not putting the interests of others before my own.
I am slowly learning to get past all these feelings of jealousy and hate,and to praise God instead. Ask God to forgive you for feeling jealousy or hate towards a person, so you can be free from that bondage and no longer have to worry about it.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition,with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, which transcends all understands, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus". Amazing words that always keeps me going after a long day from Philippians 4:6.
Do you struggle with Jealousy? You can give your request to God and he will set you free.